Life is a new beginning at every turn. Even before we are thought about there is always something occurring that creates a series of events that leads to our own personal beginning. I like to think that my parents meeting at a football game was a chance meeting that brought them to a point where they really loved each other with a new beginning of a relationship...they dated and found that love grew and maybe getting married was in the cards a new beginning yet again. Then I happened......a completely new beginning by adding a child that would one day become an amazing young woman with her own ideas and see the world completely different. How different?
Well let me just say that I have learned a lot of life lessons by the age of 29 and know more things than I ever thought I would thanks to life experience. I grew up in a home with a single mother, strong and courageous. I had strong female leads with my mother and grandmother. I also learned about sharing with going to my dad's house every other weekend from the young age of 4 to 18. My dad had a lot of tough love lessons because he genuinely loved his daughter but partially because I was not there all the time. I love both my parents and sometimes I reflect on my life and feel it wasn't bad just a lot of lessons learned about love.
I love that fact that every year I feel like I get this new beginning. Some years there is more bang for what I begin and that does not falter with 2017. Recently I have been in a job where many would like to criticize more than find an answer to help others. I had no respect among co-workers when I was promoted to assistant manager in August. The new beginning came at a time that was hectic. I was starting school again because I was told to choose between a career and school because "you cannot have both!" Well if you know this headstrong woman I am not told that.....I (with the help of my mom) found another school to take on my crazy schedule and finish this Bachelor's Degree which will be completed come August (whew!).
Back to not being accepted....I work with some (not all) real fantastic people who never want to come but expect to be paid types. We are only here because they pay well....obviously because the most excuses that I have ever had called to me were the utmost absurd. I have empathy but my give a damn busted over the summer, prior to my promotion. I was working by myself 95% of the time with an amazing front desk staff trying to make the most of the situation. We did and we had fun sometimes...then the problems came back and I was in hell.
I fought internal battles of how to make things better, I would try to make higher ups aware of what was wrong. I love the we will discuss this with them lines; fed over and over....finally I told myself if this doesn't get better I am going to start looking.
I started a search and fell into depression because I know in my heart people do not change. You truly can only change by making choices to correct yourself. I was in no way capable of performing a miracle and I was only hurting my family by being so miserable that on December 8th a miracle occurred. I think I have some type of divine intervention at times with my angels keeping me on a path of straight and narrow. I received a call for a new position at another company in Springfield.
I am no longer going to be in medical, I am growing! I am starting a job with an insurance company..Horace Mann. I will be answering the phone in my own cubicle and finishing a degree. Why? I needed a new beginning, I have focused solely on medical for 13 years and maybe just because you have an open, caring heart and soul, does not always mean that a career is perfect for you. I was in medicine to make a difference and right now is not the time. I think that I am finding a new beginning as a way to find who I really am, what matters right now. I am thankful to have the loving support of a man I started a new beginning with 3 months ago. He gets my crazy when I don't sometimes.
I am just relieved. I can honestly for once say...."Yeah so what? I don't know what I am doing, I am just doing it!" I like this, feeling spontaneous and just living. As long as bills are paid, life can be lived in my house. I am almost 30 and yes in the next 5 years I hope to have life a little more on track. When I get there I will get there with probably another NEW BEGINNING!!! I love it!
Take the road less traveled.......and make your new beginning possible.
Marcey
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