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Friday, January 6, 2017
2017.... Here is to another new beginning!
Life is a new beginning at every turn. Even before we are thought about there is always something occurring that creates a series of events that leads to our own personal beginning. I like to think that my parents meeting at a football game was a chance meeting that brought them to a point where they really loved each other with a new beginning of a relationship...they dated and found that love grew and maybe getting married was in the cards a new beginning yet again. Then I happened......a completely new beginning by adding a child that would one day become an amazing young woman with her own ideas and see the world completely different. How different?
Well let me just say that I have learned a lot of life lessons by the age of 29 and know more things than I ever thought I would thanks to life experience. I grew up in a home with a single mother, strong and courageous. I had strong female leads with my mother and grandmother. I also learned about sharing with going to my dad's house every other weekend from the young age of 4 to 18. My dad had a lot of tough love lessons because he genuinely loved his daughter but partially because I was not there all the time. I love both my parents and sometimes I reflect on my life and feel it wasn't bad just a lot of lessons learned about love.
I love that fact that every year I feel like I get this new beginning. Some years there is more bang for what I begin and that does not falter with 2017. Recently I have been in a job where many would like to criticize more than find an answer to help others. I had no respect among co-workers when I was promoted to assistant manager in August. The new beginning came at a time that was hectic. I was starting school again because I was told to choose between a career and school because "you cannot have both!" Well if you know this headstrong woman I am not told that.....I (with the help of my mom) found another school to take on my crazy schedule and finish this Bachelor's Degree which will be completed come August (whew!).
Back to not being accepted....I work with some (not all) real fantastic people who never want to come but expect to be paid types. We are only here because they pay well....obviously because the most excuses that I have ever had called to me were the utmost absurd. I have empathy but my give a damn busted over the summer, prior to my promotion. I was working by myself 95% of the time with an amazing front desk staff trying to make the most of the situation. We did and we had fun sometimes...then the problems came back and I was in hell.
I fought internal battles of how to make things better, I would try to make higher ups aware of what was wrong. I love the we will discuss this with them lines; fed over and over....finally I told myself if this doesn't get better I am going to start looking.
I started a search and fell into depression because I know in my heart people do not change. You truly can only change by making choices to correct yourself. I was in no way capable of performing a miracle and I was only hurting my family by being so miserable that on December 8th a miracle occurred. I think I have some type of divine intervention at times with my angels keeping me on a path of straight and narrow. I received a call for a new position at another company in Springfield.
I am no longer going to be in medical, I am growing! I am starting a job with an insurance company..Horace Mann. I will be answering the phone in my own cubicle and finishing a degree. Why? I needed a new beginning, I have focused solely on medical for 13 years and maybe just because you have an open, caring heart and soul, does not always mean that a career is perfect for you. I was in medicine to make a difference and right now is not the time. I think that I am finding a new beginning as a way to find who I really am, what matters right now. I am thankful to have the loving support of a man I started a new beginning with 3 months ago. He gets my crazy when I don't sometimes.
I am just relieved. I can honestly for once say...."Yeah so what? I don't know what I am doing, I am just doing it!" I like this, feeling spontaneous and just living. As long as bills are paid, life can be lived in my house. I am almost 30 and yes in the next 5 years I hope to have life a little more on track. When I get there I will get there with probably another NEW BEGINNING!!! I love it!
Take the road less traveled.......and make your new beginning possible.
Marcey
Well let me just say that I have learned a lot of life lessons by the age of 29 and know more things than I ever thought I would thanks to life experience. I grew up in a home with a single mother, strong and courageous. I had strong female leads with my mother and grandmother. I also learned about sharing with going to my dad's house every other weekend from the young age of 4 to 18. My dad had a lot of tough love lessons because he genuinely loved his daughter but partially because I was not there all the time. I love both my parents and sometimes I reflect on my life and feel it wasn't bad just a lot of lessons learned about love.
I love that fact that every year I feel like I get this new beginning. Some years there is more bang for what I begin and that does not falter with 2017. Recently I have been in a job where many would like to criticize more than find an answer to help others. I had no respect among co-workers when I was promoted to assistant manager in August. The new beginning came at a time that was hectic. I was starting school again because I was told to choose between a career and school because "you cannot have both!" Well if you know this headstrong woman I am not told that.....I (with the help of my mom) found another school to take on my crazy schedule and finish this Bachelor's Degree which will be completed come August (whew!).
Back to not being accepted....I work with some (not all) real fantastic people who never want to come but expect to be paid types. We are only here because they pay well....obviously because the most excuses that I have ever had called to me were the utmost absurd. I have empathy but my give a damn busted over the summer, prior to my promotion. I was working by myself 95% of the time with an amazing front desk staff trying to make the most of the situation. We did and we had fun sometimes...then the problems came back and I was in hell.
I fought internal battles of how to make things better, I would try to make higher ups aware of what was wrong. I love the we will discuss this with them lines; fed over and over....finally I told myself if this doesn't get better I am going to start looking.
I started a search and fell into depression because I know in my heart people do not change. You truly can only change by making choices to correct yourself. I was in no way capable of performing a miracle and I was only hurting my family by being so miserable that on December 8th a miracle occurred. I think I have some type of divine intervention at times with my angels keeping me on a path of straight and narrow. I received a call for a new position at another company in Springfield.
I am no longer going to be in medical, I am growing! I am starting a job with an insurance company..Horace Mann. I will be answering the phone in my own cubicle and finishing a degree. Why? I needed a new beginning, I have focused solely on medical for 13 years and maybe just because you have an open, caring heart and soul, does not always mean that a career is perfect for you. I was in medicine to make a difference and right now is not the time. I think that I am finding a new beginning as a way to find who I really am, what matters right now. I am thankful to have the loving support of a man I started a new beginning with 3 months ago. He gets my crazy when I don't sometimes.
I am just relieved. I can honestly for once say...."Yeah so what? I don't know what I am doing, I am just doing it!" I like this, feeling spontaneous and just living. As long as bills are paid, life can be lived in my house. I am almost 30 and yes in the next 5 years I hope to have life a little more on track. When I get there I will get there with probably another NEW BEGINNING!!! I love it!
Take the road less traveled.......and make your new beginning possible.
Marcey
Monday, November 28, 2016
29 and Growing.
The great old sage line of "When life gives you lemons you make lemonade and if there is vodka you have a party!" The only problem is I have never been the one to add the vodka...make it sugar and some ice and we have a lemonade shake-up....more of this girl's speed! I am learning as I get older in life that we can't make too much out of everything. I have many frustrations I have been working on through out the last 10 years. I have to say there are too many demons at times, I take a break pick up the sword and just keep slaying at the layers....
Many would ask why do you keep on going like you do? I have to say the perseverance is strong in this one. I am not one to back down or give up on myself anymore. Many moons ago I wanted to be a physician and I never fulfilled the goal. I want to finish what I start and if it now means slowing the pace because being an adult means working full time and going to school 1-2 classes at a time so it be. I have the support of a great family, my husband, and a few close friends who just get me....I am Marcey.
I am not perfect, I learn hands-on, hate taking tests which are multiple choice hence why nursing school and I never made friends but the clinical side and I where it was just me and the patient I was a rock star! Yes, I will toot my own horn because I do have a genuine heart and I love helping people preferably people who have wrinkles, grey hair, and put you in your place when needed.
This is not because I had influence from a grandmother who was wise beyond years. The cheerleader of my childhood, who was proud because of everything I was accomplishing by just being myself. I never had to prove anything to her, she knew that I could be exceptional if I put in the effort and kept the dream alive in my heart. When I did not finish nursing school it was not the end of the world for her but me. She never gave up until her dying day knowing in her heart that I would find a journey for me.
Low and behold four and a half years later, I am still honing in on this journey, a dream to make this life something more to other grandmothers and grandfathers. Ageing in itself is a science, we all travel this journey differently and it makes us unique, we all have a story we are telling until the final breath.
With this blog will come some of the most meaningful moments, growing in future movements, life changes, so does my hair color, the one thing that will never change is the huge heart I have in giving back to a woman who gave me so much. I am not on this journey for her but for myself, because the years I had shaped who I am destined to be; I have learned so much but there is more to be acknowledged. Life is gift and the present is how we unwrap the gift and put it to use.
Many would ask why do you keep on going like you do? I have to say the perseverance is strong in this one. I am not one to back down or give up on myself anymore. Many moons ago I wanted to be a physician and I never fulfilled the goal. I want to finish what I start and if it now means slowing the pace because being an adult means working full time and going to school 1-2 classes at a time so it be. I have the support of a great family, my husband, and a few close friends who just get me....I am Marcey.
I am not perfect, I learn hands-on, hate taking tests which are multiple choice hence why nursing school and I never made friends but the clinical side and I where it was just me and the patient I was a rock star! Yes, I will toot my own horn because I do have a genuine heart and I love helping people preferably people who have wrinkles, grey hair, and put you in your place when needed.
This is not because I had influence from a grandmother who was wise beyond years. The cheerleader of my childhood, who was proud because of everything I was accomplishing by just being myself. I never had to prove anything to her, she knew that I could be exceptional if I put in the effort and kept the dream alive in my heart. When I did not finish nursing school it was not the end of the world for her but me. She never gave up until her dying day knowing in her heart that I would find a journey for me.
Low and behold four and a half years later, I am still honing in on this journey, a dream to make this life something more to other grandmothers and grandfathers. Ageing in itself is a science, we all travel this journey differently and it makes us unique, we all have a story we are telling until the final breath.
With this blog will come some of the most meaningful moments, growing in future movements, life changes, so does my hair color, the one thing that will never change is the huge heart I have in giving back to a woman who gave me so much. I am not on this journey for her but for myself, because the years I had shaped who I am destined to be; I have learned so much but there is more to be acknowledged. Life is gift and the present is how we unwrap the gift and put it to use.
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